Why? Because I've been to ashamed to face my audience...I have disappointed you and myself and for that I am truly remorseful.
SO WHAT HAVE I BEEN DOING IN THE PAST 4 MONTHS?
Eating, Eating, Eating and Gaining all the weight in the world plus more.
My highest weight since I moved to Boston: 280
Current Weight: 274.6
Beginning Weight When I first moved here: 233.0
So we are talking about a 47 lb weight gain, in 8 months...It is embarrassing...
So why am I back?
Because I am truly unhappy with myself and how much I have let myself go. My highest weight ever I found out after looking at medical records was 340 lbs, I lost 120 and was down to 220, and a size 12. I have now gained 60lbs of the weight I lost since April 2012, and I am truly unhappy.
BUT I AM DETERMINED..
So whats going to make this time any different?
Simply because I will not allow myself any more chances for fuck ups.
My health is at risk, I fear my diabetes will come back, I'm unhappy about my fitness level, and I'm truly unhappy about the type of foods that I am putting in my body. I have become too comfortable..
SO LETS GET UNCOMFORTABLE...
What does that mean:
12-16 glasses of water a day
5 days of exercising (boxing, or running)
1200-1500 calories a day
Less bingeing more exercising...
I no longer have time to think about it, its do or die...Either I exercise, stay fit, and lose this weight, Or I stay fat, complacent, have an early death and drown in my misery....
Today is Tuesday May 14th...Next Tuesday's Goal is to be 270 lbs (Thats a 4lb weight loss...lofty..I know, but I know that my body will drop the weight because I am shocking it out of laziness).
This blog will be both my diary and my testimony....It is OKAY to fall...I'm just tired of Falling and I'm ready to get back up....
dont be discourage you are on the right path. It is ok to fall, if you dont fall then you would not know how to get up. Congrats on the achievements you have made all the best.
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