THE DOCTRINES OF CONTROL

As all of those who read my blog know, moving to Boston has been a death sentence on my weight loss progress and seems to have unraveled all my goals. But this morning I woke up after a night of binging, drinking and more binging and realized that its time to STOP blaming the move and start looking within.

I realized that I am a slave to something....I am a slave to food and complacency...I am enslaved by routine and boredom, and the only way to free myself is to look at myself and start to make drastic changes.

WHAT CONTROLS YOU?

For me its Food, its getting too comfortable, it's forgetting how Hard I worked to lose weight from 330 lbs.

How quick I am to forget.

So WHAT WILL HELP ME REGAIN CONTROL?

I have decided that I will start blogging about my hunger experiences on this blog.

I will start actively listening to my body.

I will control FOOD, I will LEARN TO SAY NO WHEN OFFERED SAID FOOD, I will gain discipline.

I have told my friends this all this time; WEIGHT LOSS IS HARD, IF ONE CAN MASTER THE DISCIPLINE TO EXERCISE, EAT CLEAN, AND ACHIEVE INNER PEACE, ONE CAN MASTER IT ALL.

I FEEL BLOATED, NONE OF MY BEAUTIFUL CLOTHES FIT, I FEEL ANGRY, I SEE MY PROGRESS UNRAVELING AT A TERRIFYING PACE (I CAN'T SEE MY COLLAR BONES ANY MORE).

THERE IS NO MORE TIME FOR OPTIMISM...THERE IS ONLY TIME FOR ACCOUNTABILITY AND ACTION.

THEY SAY IT TAKES 21 DAYS TO BREAK A HABIT....TODAY I WILL BREAK MY 21 DAYS INTO 3 PHASES...

THIS IS PHASE 1-DAY 1-

LETS GOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!!!!!!!!!!